it's incredibly hard and it takes a long time for me to let people in
once i do, i can't let go of them no matter what
no matter what they do or what happens, it's impossible for me to completely let go
some of the people i've been closest to have hurt me beyond belief and i still love them, and i would still do anything for them
even if it means getting hurt over and over again
it's a big flaw and it's completely masochistic at times

this boy has had my heart for 5 years
and despite what he and i do to each other, i would bend over backwards to make him happy because being able to make him happy makes me happy
i always knew these feelings were there after we broke up, i just can't believe i'm admitting it